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Thursday, September 10, 2009

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 00:12:56 GMT

Today was a really good day. My first in a long time. Today Brinton said he liked my hair, I threw up at practice (not a lot) and got a free shirt that's from 1987, and I found out I'm going to the Texas vs. Texas Tech game with my brother! I also found out he's coming down for a visit this weekend!
This year I'm super organized. This time last year I was already unorganized and forgetting my homework lol. BUT! That has changed. I write down my homework on a sheet of paper and it's been working fabulously for me! School is alright. I had a test in spanish today that i'm pretty sure i passed and tomorrow we're doing the oral part/ paragraph. I'm readyyy! Well I don't have anything else really to say...

10 things on my mind
1. Brinton
2. Garrett
3. Cassandra
4. Cassie
5. Lanie
6. Michelle
7. Scott & Calvin
8. My mother
9. My brother
10. The Glass Castle by Jeannate Walls (amazing book!)

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 14:40:42 GMT

So I just woke up from a sleepover at Sydney's house. It was super fun! I think it was good for me to go out and about with my girl friends and to just totally let loose. Cassie and I shared a bed and we stayed up until 6:10! Lol I am so tired because the other girls ran into our room at like 9:45 this morning and woke us up. Cassie is so wide awake though. Hahaha! We had these random hyper attacks where we couldn't stop laughing. It was the most fun thing I've done in awhile. Sydney and Cassandra stayed in Cassie and my room until about 4:30 then went to their bed. When they got to our room in the morning they were like, "Oh ya we went to bed at 5:30," and Cassie and I were like, "We beat you. 6:10!" hahhaa! We talked for about 2 hours about like nothing at all. Like we talked about Robbie, Calvin, and one other thing and then laughed for the rest of the time and our conversations were like 10 minutes each. I had so much fun and I love our team. We got matching sports bra's before we came over to Sydney's and they're HOTT! I freaking love my team so much! Lol I really like the sports bras. All About Steve was really good too, I thought. Whoops! I meant the story of my life was a good movie. Lol! "If you love someone you have to be able to let them go, if you have to stalk them they were probably never yours." Best line of the movie! Haha well think that's enough for now because my friends are all upstairs.
Oh and I can't wait for it to get cold enough so I can wear my grandpa's old Members Only jacket. It's getting a little easier and I know I'll never get over it, but I will try to live with it the best I can.

8 things on my mind
1. Sydney
2. Cassie
3. Calvin
4. Ashley
5. Random fits of giggles with Cassie
6. Brinton
7. My phone
8. When I get home I'm going to be dead asleep

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 00:22:58 GMT

I'm annoyed. I'm jealous. I hate dryland. I hate my life (not really). I hate people. I hate homework. I hate that my grandpa isn't alive right now. I hate not knowing I have the option to call him just to say "Grandpa, I had a bad day." and him say "Tell me about it..." I hate that I can't say I love you to him anymore. I hate that he had that stupid mass in his colon. I hate that both my parents are so busy all the time (my mom's not too busy where i can't talk to her). I hate that I know that I should be doing my English homework. I hate that I can't focus on anything right now. I hate that my shoulders are so sore. I hate that I keep things bottled up so much. I hate the fact that I think I'm fat (don't tell me I'm not. I know I'm not). I hate that my summer was terrible. I hate/love that we have my grandpa's old truck. I hate that it has a sticker that says, "I'm a Longhorn Grandpa" on the back that stares at me as I return home everyday. I hate that all my best friends (err...most) switched teams. I hate that I can't talk to anybody about my feelings because none of my friends have gone through it, they get all freaked out when i try, and they get distracted too easily. Everything is screwed up. I just want to sleep all day in my little bed and never have to see anyone ever again.

15 things on my mind (Oh my word! so many!)
1. Genevieve
2. my mother
3. my father
4. my brother
5. Brinton
6. English homework
7. Me always spelling homework "homeowrk"
8. My grandfather
9. Ashely Paul
10. Garrett
11. Cassie
12. Cassandra
13. Sydney
14. Dryland
15. Sore everywhere!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 14:23:06 GMT

These last few days have been just like a hurricane. I have a bruise on my right hand from shaking so many hands. I'm pretty sure if I shake anyone's hand the words, "Thank you for coming" will just pop out of my mouth. Yesterday at my grandfather's funeral I read the Reponsorial (sp?). Everyone said I did it very nicely and with a lot of poise. I know my grandfather would have been very proud. My dad told me that if I had not told him how much I was shaking before I went up there, he would not have known. He says I should look into becoming a Priest. I think he was kidding. I don't know. During my brother's part of the Eulogy he broke down. He didn't run away or anything. He stayed up there and proved to everyone how much my grandfather meant to him. My brother is a very brave boy. I know I wouldn't have been able to do that. After the Eulogy everyone clapped for him. My grandmother has been to over 50 funerals and she has never heard an applause after a Eulogy. My cousin, Matt, also did a Eulogy. His was a lot shorter, but it started right where my brothers left off and his was beautiful too. He also got an applause. I know my grandfather well and I know that he was looking down on us and he was proud. He was probably bragging to Ted kennedy while they're drinking a scotch and a beer, "Those are my grandchildren. They're doing everything with such class. They love me so much." I know he doesn't want us crying and mourning. I know he wants us to keep living our lives and to be happy and care-free so that's exactly what I'm going to try to do. He definitely will stay in my heart forever though. There were so many people at the funeral! I always knew that my grandpa was famous in Hondo, but seeing all those people there proved exactly how famous he was and how much he meant to everyone. I'm proud to be his granddaughter and I will wear the title with dignity everyday of my life. The most important lesson he taught me was to always wear my head held high even when I'm at the lowest of my lows and that's exactly what I'll do. I love him so much and he will be missed. It will be hard for a few more weeks, but with time I will be ok. Thanks to everyone who has checked up on me and to everyone who is praying for me and my family. It means the world to us. R.I.P. Grandpa

7 things on my mind
1. My grandpa
2. My grandma
3. Turbo (my stupid cat)
4. Genevieve
5. My parents
6. David (my brother)
7. Matt (my cousin)

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 00:57:05 GMT

my life is really falling apart. everything is worked out from yesterday. everyone loves each other again. woo.
my grandfather passed away at 6:45 this morning. we don't know why, but it's over. i didn't go to school today. all i did was take a nap and cry on and off all day. we'll see how i act tomorrow...hopefully i don't fall apart. my grandpa was a great man and he was so strong. why did he have to go? why couldn't someone who was weak and suffering go? why him? a lot of people other than his family loved him. he was a father figure for so many of my dad's friends. i just can't seem to be true. he was supposed to die gracefully in his sleep. not in a hospital being kept alive by machines with people all around him crying. i know he is watching me right now and wanting me not to cry, but i just can't help myself. i will miss him so much. i love him and i know he'll always be with me. i know that he is in a better place and all that jazz, but he wasn't ready to go. he had a lot of work to still do here. he was the best grandpa ever and he spoiled me so much. i'm the only granddaughter and i had him wrapped around my finger. (i never abused my power though.) when i was first born, he was scared of me. he wanted another boy, but he soon loved me as much as my brother and cousin. he will forever be in my heart and i loved him a lot. even though i loved him a lot, i know that he loved me and his family more than anyone could ever love anyone. he was such an honorable man until the second he left Earth and i definitely will never forget him.
on a different note...3 of my best friends switched teams. i know it was a hard decision, i've been there before, and they will be missed. the team(s) won't be the same without you! i love you guys and i'll see you soon!

6 things on my mind
1. my grandpa
2. lanie
3. caitlin
4. alex
5. michelle
6. cassandra

Friday, August 21, 2009

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 02:26:01 GMT

michelle's "i hate" list has inspired me. the only thing i hate about you is that you pretty much don't care at all and that makes me care even more. today was a really good day when you look at it. home alone for awhile, saw bryan, learned how to do the moon walk, went shopping with my mom, and went to the movies with my friends. good day right? for some reason i can't stop thinking about you and it's annoying. honestly, you ruined my good day. i had a lot of fun, but when i get to be alone i start thinking and it gets me mad. why do i like you? you're not that great! you don't even freaking talk to me! so why do i like you?! what the hell is wrong with me?! i know for a fact i'm wasting my time, but it's not really like i'm letting you get in the way of my fun. it sucks to know i'm wasting my time and i can't do a damn thing about it. why is it so freaking hard to get over someone? why, when i think about you, do i get a smile on my face? why, when i'm writing this hate blog about you, am i smiling? why do you get to me the way you do? why do you mean so much to me? why are you so shy? am i really that scary? i don't think i am.
i'm pretty sure a new, really hott guy needs to get his butt to the pool and sweep me off my feet. too bad that probably won't even help though.

8 things on my mind
1. calvin
2. michelle
3. xanga is the best kind of therapy
4. lanie
5. "It made me sick to think about everything you put me through and how you left without saying goodbye" - this is the end by the maine
6. the goods
7. eyelash wishes
8. the wish i always make

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 01:26:05 GMT

my birthday was just lovely. not what i expected, but in a good way. it ended up being a lot more fun than i thought it was going to be. everyone, even people i haven't talked to since middle school, wished me a happy birthday. it meant a whole lot! :) Jessica Jin's happy birthday wishes stuck out to me though, mostly because i forgot to say I LOVE YOU TOO JESSICA JIN!
i just got home from the hospital and my grandfather is in surgery as i type this. the doctor was really nice and i know his surgery will be good. taylor, my brother's girlfriend, is over and she bought me a gift! she's my friend and all too, but she bought me a gift! not what i expected at all! she got me a shirt and earrings. my holes had almost closed and putting them in was a little hard, but i did it! and now i'm wearing the training earrings i got when i was in 3rd grade. haha! it was a nice birthday. i got some new clothes, books, and money.
yesterday didn't feel like it was going to be my birthday, but today definitley felt like it was my birthday. thank you everyone!

7 things on my mind
1. all the happy birthday wishes
2. cassie being the first to say happy birthday and daniel being second.
3. will he text me or something and say happy birthday? i don't think he will.
4. my grandpa's surgery
5. michelle saying happy birthday to me the most and all in different ways.
6. meeting cassandra
7. my date with cassie!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 02:44:35 GMT

my birthday is in less than two hours. for some reason i'm not really in the mood to have my birthday. every year as soon as it hits August 1st i count down how many days until my birthday. this year i didn't. it's like i didn't care that i was aging a whole year older. i know my friends mean well by making fun of my age since i'm younger than them all and i know i banter back and everything, but i hate being the youngest. i always have been and it's pretty much an accomplishment when i meet someone younger than me. i know i always tell people "i'm so cute, right?" when they realize how much younger i am than them. this year my friends started treating me like i was way younger than them about a week before my birthday, and it was annoying. i know i'm younger than y'all, but how come you never act like that during the rest of the year. it's not like i want you to, but why do you choose like a week before to be like "oh baby gaby!"
and this year is going to suck. i already got my main birthday presant from my parents (my phone) so now i pretty much have nothing to open tomorrow. OH! and also my grandpa is getting colon surgery (as i mentioned in my last blog.) it really sucks knowing that they could have said "no that's my grand daughters birthday and i don't want it spent at the hospital" but they didn't. am i being selfish? i think i am, but this is my blog and i'm saying what's on my mind. so now, instead of having my best friends over for a sleepover or just to chill or whatever, i have to be at the hospital with my family. don't get me wrong! i totally love my family, but it's my birthday for God's sake! I don't want to be with my family, i want to be with all my best friends partying it up! hospitals are really depressing and boring and, frankly, i don't want to be depressed and bored.
happy birthday to me. happy birthday to me. happy birthday dear gaby. happy birthday to me. woo.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 02:39:53 GMT

i can't believe i forgot about xanga! myspace and facebook are just so much more addicting for me. i guess it's because more of my friends have those...
this summer has been alright actually...i'll go through the bad things first...my iPod got stolen on the last day of school so i was iPod less until abound july 20th. my grandpa needed heart surgery and i almost wasn't allowed to go to the beach with my friends. he now needs surgery on his colon (which is why he got heart surgery. it's confusing i'm not gonna go into it) and he scheduled it on my birthday. this season i did NOT do good at all. my shoulder started hurting so the events i did get to swim i added a lot. it was just one of those season where i didn't drop. i took it as it came. i don't mind because this has happened to me before and i always came out better and faster. i hope it's the same this time.
good things though...got to go to the beach for marisa's birthday! it was soooo fun to hang with ashleypaul, cassie, lanie, caitlin, and marisa for like 3 days! making alex's myspace for her. going to senior champs (which is going to get it's own paragraph) and going to the beach with michelle after!
m'kayyyy let's talk about tags before senior champs. tags was fun with david moore! he's so funny! he raced kevin ku! it was sooooo awesome! lol kevin ku is my freaking hero! he's insanely fast and he looks like he shouldn't be. ha every time i see him i whisper to the person next to me "omg kevin ku. omg omg omg! it's kevin ku!" lol i'ma freak.
seniorrrr champs! it was sooooooooooooooo funnn! the gold boys were there! (minus kyle ) they were cool except for the fact that we barley freaking talked! i mean dakota talked to me because he's the shit, scott kinda sorta talked to me...and calvin pretty much didn't! whatever though. i danced around, i read, i cheered for my friends, and i saw this cute guy that me, cassie, sammi, and michelle named blake. lol! we took so many crazy pictures! ahhh memories.hahaha michelle talked to this guy named cameron and she was so awkward. wow it was so amazing. LOL! oh my mother gave me and michelle things to do at the meet. michelle's list was take a picture with charles, one hugging coach g, one with a hott guy (cameron), and one with a hott waiter. she only didn't get a hott waiter. lol mine was take a picture with scott, dakota, calvin, and a hott guy. i didn't get one with a hott guy, but oh well! michelle made it so awkward when she asked calvin to take a picture with me. we hadn't talked like the whole meet so ya...but he did. after he took a shower then came outta the locker room and said he forgot his towel, but it really took him a long time to "take a shower" so i think he was just sitting in there and hypervenalating for awhile. lol jkkkk! even though he didn't talk to me because he was being "a shy boyyyy!" (says scott) and even though i told michelle that i was tired of him ignoring me i still think i may have a little crush on him. shhh don't tell. and i can't turn around without seeing something that reminds me of him. stupid boy! also this weekend walter decided that he would not text michelle at all even though he had his phone! LAME! so me and michelle decided that we're addicted to boys who don't talk to us. we're also not gonna let them get in the way of us having funnnn! they were really dumb at that meet and we hope they get the balls to talk to us next time we see them.

11 things on my mind
1. Calvin
2. Michelle
3. Charlie
4. Facebook
5. Summer Reading
6. School
7. Swimming
8. 86
9. Shy boys
10. March 2, 2009 - the day n00b became part of my normal vocabulary
11. "She is love! And she is allllll i need" - She is love by Parachute

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 01:16:02 GMT

Don't you hate it when people you think you can trust, people you think is a really great friend turns out to be a douche? Seriously what the hell is your problem? I go up and ask you a dear honest question and you accuse me of cheating?! I have no idea what's been wrong with you lately, but all of a sudden you're moody and always complaining. The only time you're your old self is when people give you compliments it seems. I'm tired of it! I miss you because you always made me laugh so hard no matter my mood. I really miss the old you.

5 things on my mind
1. Escape the Fate
2. Michelle
3. Lanie
4. Zach
5. "Give me your heart, make it real, or else forget about it!"